God Bless America that Charles Phoenix can make a living doing this

http://www.charlesphoenix.com/events/

And if he can, then by god--there has got to be a chance for me!!!

More journaling

I dreamed that I took that camera outside and it worked. That is all I remember---I had it earlier. how about photographs of male bodies, but not the aestehtic of the gay stuff. More something a woman would find --------James Macavoy is interesting. I would love to interview him about the way he is living a family life at a young age and well what happenned after the Angie Jolie movie? How about audio interviews. that is what Andy Warhol did. Bring David Hockney to life. That is Miro or kandinsky over there. Some of their paintings are identical. I like very simple lyrics. They lyrics can be like poetry even in Rodgers and Hammerstein--Oklahoma-but also in the Ting Tings Shut up and let me go---surreal poetry.

My brain is wading though honey

Honey
Originally uploaded by dalyswe

I just love unknown artists--everyday artists. Such as the gent who took this photo.

You know the description of walking through honey, how it feels your physical energy is being dragged on, if your body were to walk through honey-- I feel that way in my head. when I get up from these naps and I have usually drank too much wine the night before. And I am currently medicating my depression with wine and marijuana. I take nap every afternoon which is to make up for all the sleep lost when I had the babies. I am always beginner. When i had the babies I wanted to be good at something. I had never been good at anything my whole goddamned life. Now it is overwhelming to me. And my brain is going into total confusion and disorganization, total mental disorganization And I am falling into disassociation with reality. This is my ramble . It is my morning pages thing. Remember that woman who was married to Matin Scorcese suggests you do stream of consciousness free flow writing every morning, where you don't stop with pen to paper. But I think computer is OK And it becomes a meditation and I way to tap into the creativity. I just want to feel ALIVE I think that is what we all want. And I am quickly turning into a neglectful Mother.

I must make this into a story.

A Scorpian that lived in our house in Tuscany
Originally uploaded by John Morton

Looks similar to the scorpion that bit me in Waco Texas when I was 17, 18 years. old. Met Lucretia's friends and we partied out at a lake. One of Lucretia's friends had a boyfriend named Brad. EArlier I had been bit. We are all lying on a trampoline with blankets over us looking up at the sky and talking. This whole group of kids. And Brad begin ns stroking my hand, thigh and arm. It sets off a firey response in my body. Compltetely visceral. I had not even even noticed this guy, more than just met him as he was Lucreita's best friends boyfriend. I believe he had noticed me. I responded to his touch, but not because found I him cute or had a crush on him or we had been flirting. My body responded( seemingly) on it's own. I Later on his girlfriend said to me (in a strong Texas accent)You weren't messin' with Brad tonight were you I shook my head, guiltily and self consciously. Yeah Isat there with Brad laid there rather and can't remember exactly how I responded. Well how do you want your character to respond.

Damien Rice new to me

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Damien_Rice

I can't believe I had never heard of this dude. Maybe I had but I wasn't aware of it. He and Ray Lamontagne colloaberated on an acoutic version of the Bee Gees. To Love Somebody.

The English Patient: Original Soundtrack Recording

The English Patient: Original Soundtrack Recording
Originally uploaded by Jayberkowitz2009

I love this movie and I don't care who knows it. I love it more now than when I saw it 10 years ago. well now 12 fucking years ago...I will go into the reasons why I am saying this OK> First we'll read some reviews of the time and research the involvement of the Weinsteins and the Oscar "controversy" My blog will just take the tone of a journal more or less, why the hell not. It is hard to believe that the Weinsteins also were the men behind Pulp Fiction. Which is not my cup of tea at all. HOwever I would love to talk to QT love to talk about that fact with him as he is a very funny conversationalist and we could talk about our vastly different aesthetic and taste and preferences in movies....

Cubism from Wilkpedia

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cubism

poloroid

http://www.cbsnews.com/video/watch/

The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari

The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari
Originally uploaded by skyesaxon

This is a fabulous poster whoever designed it. This is known as the first true Horror film. A German Expressionist classic. I first learned about it in Film School way back when, like most people. Mike Budd did a film essay on the commentary track. It was hard to follow in parts, but fascinating. Talked a lot about modernism, and expressionism and the narrative elements--traditional and radically different. I would like to talk to that Mike Budd in laymen's terms though. Anybody who is an expert on this film please contact me.

Perhaps it is for a reason that this blog has had to be remained Sceneoutlines.

A woman or wife is too inclines to distraction and daydreaming. The husband employer/is impatient and wants her to work faster...She compares it to exploiting labor.demanding faster production. he offers to pay her to have sex with him--ongoing--in lieu of the office production.

And then what? well---it could be sexual harassment, or it could be the beginning of a romance with a "kooky" LOL artist. No let's not cast fucking Jennifer Anniston in that part.

And if anyone steals my idea I am going to kick your MF #$$.

Stupid I know. If you want to collaborate let me know.