Trajectory is a great word.

I need a different trajectory. ha, I love that word. Scintillating last week and Trajectory this week. Love it. Aitch's new word of the week. It is a "vocab." word and it is a beautiful and interesting and nuanced word in the English language. I need a trajectory in my life besides writing about R and K,;ra·jec·to·ry (trə-jěk'tə-rē)
n. pl. tra·jec·to·ries
The path of a projectile or other moving body through space.

A chosen or taken course: "What died with [the assassinated leaders] was a moral trajectory, a style of aspiration" (Lance Morrow).

Mathematics A curve that cuts all of a given family of curves or surfaces at the same angle.

How about your blog, also learn the camera. Get a project like the boys picture. A filmed version of the blog. Interview people.
Also, will post a new picture of the week for the hell of it and it looks good. I should be more pithy I guess in some of my posts. I don't want to be manic. Maybe I do?!
It was very much a macho or male oriented scene in the Beat Scene with Kerouac, Ginsberg, Burroughs and Neal Cassaday. When I discovered Kerouac on a PBS documentary I was taken with the group of literaries and cultural players and another fascinating American art scene. taken with Kerouac, he had such good looks when he was young before alcoholism ravaged him.
And what is weird or interesting is Allen Ginsburg's connection to Andy and Edie. And then his to Bob Dylan also. Allan Ginsburg is a great American character!!! On the cultural zeitgeist. The Beats, On Callie Angels Screen Test. Callie Angels Screen tests is a Must for AW scholars and films history scholars. Ginsberg is in it and all the people who are in it is fascinating. DAnny Fields? His doc.
My original thought was the macho-ness of the Beats, and the lack of female participation,( REading about it in John Leland history of HIp) The women were the help mates and the women who would of been literary talent but they could not get away with as much as the boys. Because they were and women don't get away with that behavior much. That is one lesson from that Boulder murder victim of the 1950s. Who was that I just erased it? Damn it.
. It's what I've always been saying about Ken Kesey. Where was Mrs. Kesey when Ken went riding around the bus with Neil Cassady???? who was tripping his ass off during the 1960s. Neal adjusted well to the hippie era. so as I have been saying for a long time. you could have been 14 in the 1960s or you could have been Neal Cassady in the 1960s, quite a wide age span encompassed the Hippie Movement. And he would have been a fucking celebrity to all the younger hippies. I think he die by a RR track. How and where
I would ask Steve Watson about Danny Fields and that doc., The Beats, allan Ginsburg, If he waas aware of the content of the screen tests and if he studied Callie Angel's book. Andy being misjudged for his indifference to the drggies around him going really downhilll, like he didn't give as-hit the way he came across to Danny Fields Mother. And there Andrea Feldman, Edie Sedgwick, and he wished he could have filmed Freddie Herko as he leapt out the window to his suicide. That controversial attitude.

http://wonderwall.msn.com/movies/alec-baldwin-i-intend-to-have-plastic-surgery-1525160.story?gt1=28135

I would love to interview Alec Baldwin. Esp. recently when I have been remembering and forgetting how beautiful Alec Baldwin was whenhe was young. What film was he in ?The Shadow? He was touted as the next big heartthrob. And It never happended . Alec---there was article And it tanked. But he survived and now is fully "comeback"even more than when he got a second, third chance, like James CAan.And I thought eh not bad. he has certainly surpassed that. But look up the article about him from the writer on the Bear movie and he was at anall time ass moment of his life. I would ask him about that.


The ask him about what attracted him to KimBasinger What, beyond the obvious, attracted you to her.

do you remember about the writer who accounted his experiences VF or something and he had a bad impression of you. and you were blown up like a big grizzly bear.

I would applaud him for being in the love triangle movie with someone his one age--Meryl Streep.

Scintillating is such a great word.

I think my writing on message boards is scintillating. I am a scintillating person. But I may as well be writing anonymously as I am here on my Personal Blog. Because no one ever responds to me. Occasionally they do. But not often, it is rare. This makes me feel like a meaningless, insignificant, anonymous blob. I am Queen of the universe to my sons. And that was enough for a while. But alas, I now need some kind of wordly recognition. Which seems to be very hard to come by for me. I have felt that way my whole life and I continue to feel this way as middle age creeps in and I enter the world of the internet. Maybe it is a script I have bought into. Maybe I am buying into my own worn out low self-worth script even as I am shocked to see that others don't find my scintillating personality scorching across the computer screen. I guess I should just post for my own self, my own need to improve my writing skills and become even more scintillating writer. Just do it for myself, not others approval.

I think he has a cinematic face

Robert Pattinson
Originally uploaded by rrobertpattinson

Robert Pattinson looks so much like a movie star, he will probably be a movie star, wether he can act or not. Since he is British I will give him the benefit of the doubt.

God Bless America that Charles Phoenix can make a living doing this

http://www.charlesphoenix.com/events/

And if he can, then by god--there has got to be a chance for me!!!

More journaling

I dreamed that I took that camera outside and it worked. That is all I remember---I had it earlier. how about photographs of male bodies, but not the aestehtic of the gay stuff. More something a woman would find --------James Macavoy is interesting. I would love to interview him about the way he is living a family life at a young age and well what happenned after the Angie Jolie movie? How about audio interviews. that is what Andy Warhol did. Bring David Hockney to life. That is Miro or kandinsky over there. Some of their paintings are identical. I like very simple lyrics. They lyrics can be like poetry even in Rodgers and Hammerstein--Oklahoma-but also in the Ting Tings Shut up and let me go---surreal poetry.

My brain is wading though honey

Honey
Originally uploaded by dalyswe

I just love unknown artists--everyday artists. Such as the gent who took this photo.

You know the description of walking through honey, how it feels your physical energy is being dragged on, if your body were to walk through honey-- I feel that way in my head. when I get up from these naps and I have usually drank too much wine the night before. And I am currently medicating my depression with wine and marijuana. I take nap every afternoon which is to make up for all the sleep lost when I had the babies. I am always beginner. When i had the babies I wanted to be good at something. I had never been good at anything my whole goddamned life. Now it is overwhelming to me. And my brain is going into total confusion and disorganization, total mental disorganization And I am falling into disassociation with reality. This is my ramble . It is my morning pages thing. Remember that woman who was married to Matin Scorcese suggests you do stream of consciousness free flow writing every morning, where you don't stop with pen to paper. But I think computer is OK And it becomes a meditation and I way to tap into the creativity. I just want to feel ALIVE I think that is what we all want. And I am quickly turning into a neglectful Mother.

I must make this into a story.

A Scorpian that lived in our house in Tuscany
Originally uploaded by John Morton

Looks similar to the scorpion that bit me in Waco Texas when I was 17, 18 years. old. Met Lucretia's friends and we partied out at a lake. One of Lucretia's friends had a boyfriend named Brad. EArlier I had been bit. We are all lying on a trampoline with blankets over us looking up at the sky and talking. This whole group of kids. And Brad begin ns stroking my hand, thigh and arm. It sets off a firey response in my body. Compltetely visceral. I had not even even noticed this guy, more than just met him as he was Lucreita's best friends boyfriend. I believe he had noticed me. I responded to his touch, but not because found I him cute or had a crush on him or we had been flirting. My body responded( seemingly) on it's own. I Later on his girlfriend said to me (in a strong Texas accent)You weren't messin' with Brad tonight were you I shook my head, guiltily and self consciously. Yeah Isat there with Brad laid there rather and can't remember exactly how I responded. Well how do you want your character to respond.

Damien Rice new to me

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Damien_Rice

I can't believe I had never heard of this dude. Maybe I had but I wasn't aware of it. He and Ray Lamontagne colloaberated on an acoutic version of the Bee Gees. To Love Somebody.

The English Patient: Original Soundtrack Recording

The English Patient: Original Soundtrack Recording
Originally uploaded by Jayberkowitz2009

I love this movie and I don't care who knows it. I love it more now than when I saw it 10 years ago. well now 12 fucking years ago...I will go into the reasons why I am saying this OK> First we'll read some reviews of the time and research the involvement of the Weinsteins and the Oscar "controversy" My blog will just take the tone of a journal more or less, why the hell not. It is hard to believe that the Weinsteins also were the men behind Pulp Fiction. Which is not my cup of tea at all. HOwever I would love to talk to QT love to talk about that fact with him as he is a very funny conversationalist and we could talk about our vastly different aesthetic and taste and preferences in movies....